Happy, Happy Wednesday! School is now officially less than a week away. I know school started last week already for some of you, but bear with me! I wanted to share a little craziness with you. Yesterday was raining and storming in the morning. Now you know I love a good thunderstorm, I mean LOVE a thunderstorm. So I was really happy about it. The kids were not. They wanted to be outside playing. They were kind of crabby as it was and the rain was not helping.
We have been putting the kids to bed earlier and earlier every night trying to get them more prepared for school. It has been a trying process. The girls all share a room and Marsha cries for a little bit, and the little girls like to stay up chatting for a little bit. It can be frustrating! The little boys share a room and they also want to stay up reading and chatting. Mikey just wants to stay up and read all night… putting them to bed can be quite the process. The night before was no exception…. the kids are still getting used to it and so am I!
Why do I share all this, well yesterday as the kids were crabby, the house was getting messier by the minute…. seriously how do the cups in the sink keep multiplying! I grabbed my phone and decided to look on instagram , facebook and see some of the bloggers and friends I follow. I was looking for something and was not sure what it was.
Was I looking for a new recipe? No, not today. Something fun to do with the kids? Nope. I realized I looking for those people that I look up to and think have their lives so pulled together to have a normal messy mom moment. I was looking to see a normal house with a bit of a mess in the kitchen or a post about how they did not get to shower and instead just threw their hair in a fail safe ponytail. I wanted to feel validated that I was not the only one with a sink full of blasted cups at that moment, not the only one whose kids were arguing for the umpteenth time that morning about absolutely nothing important.
I love when bloggers share real life, I think as blogger we feel like we need to put our best forward all the time. I know there is strength in sharing the ugly. I have some ugly days! I was craving to know I was not the only one who has days that feel like your house will never be clean, you may never get to take those extra ten minutes to throw on jewelry and make up.
I did not find what I was looking for, I felt just as frustrated if not more after looking. So, what did I do? I decided my kids needed quiet time, all the kids, yes even the 11 yr old, I sent them all to their rooms to read and under strict instruction to not come back downstairs until I called them. I then put you tube on and found some general conference talks( general conference happens twice a year, it is when all the leaders of our church come together and speak, it is coming up in October and I can not wait, read more about it here) I then started to just clean the house, one room at a time. Just take my time, breathe and get it done. I loved the quiet, the rooms being cleaned , you know MOM cleaned, not kid cleaned. They do a great job but mom clean is a little different!
It was actually a lovely and relaxing quiet time and I am grateful for it. As I listened to the talks, I realize I can share more of my ugly. Not to complain or vent or have people feel sorry for me, PLEASE don’t do that! But to let others know I am a normal person. I have days that my house is messy, my kids argue, we are eating leftovers for the second day in a row or even cereal for dinner, yes that has happened.
Even with that I am still gloriously happy, I still wake everyday with a happy day attitude. I know I can be depressed about money, ( never enough) or laundry ( more than enough) or my kids aren’t as well behaved as I want them to be, or Mike is working all the time and I feel like I didn’t even get to hug him that day, I struggle with am I loving my kids enough, hugging them enough. Serving others enough, doing my calling for church well enough…………….. The list is a mile long and if I wanted I could sit and think about it and be depressed.
OR, I can choose everyday to be happy, to make it my best day so far. Some one once asked me “why are you so happy? You have lots of reasons to be overwhelmed or even mad.” My response to them and to everyone else who is struggling with life, is I am happy because I want to be happy. I want to see the joy in everyday. I want to teach my kids, that even when life is kinda crummy you can still be happy.
That is not saying I walk around oblivious, that is saying that I choose to see good in my life and those around me. It is a choice and the more you do it the easier it is. The more I look for good, the more good I see.
I wanted to share this to let all of you know that just like I was searching yesterday for someone who struggles, a blogger who shares that a house can be messy or whatever , if you ever need to find that look no further! I am there with you, I struggle like everyone else. My house gets messy and my kids argue like everyone else. I am a normal person, like so many others. I hope to never make anyone feel less than, or that they are not doing enough. I have a friend that refuses to read blogs, she said they only make her feel worse, a worse mom, a worse wife, etc. I hope you never feel that way with me. As a blogger, you want to impress others. You want them to want to take time out of their busy day to come to your blog and read it! You hope they share it, you hope you gave them something that was worthwhile. It is funny, I could spend 20 min trying to take that perfect photo or share the perfect recipe. It can be scary about what to post and share. And frankly, I don’t have time to be that impressive! So what you see is what you get!
I want to share the real me, I want you to know I have the messy…that being said, I do want you to read the blog! I do want you to want to come back daily but above all that, I want you to feel more…. more joyful, more empowered to do something new, try a new recipe or a craft, more happy and above all more loved. That is my purpose.
I am grateful that yesterday when I was struggling, I finally looked to the Lord, it only took me not finding it online! I listened to great talks about being enough and not giving up, to find joy in the life you live. It centered me. I needed it! So much more than I realized.
Quiet time was over, the house was clean, the kids were rested and the day was better! YAY!
So today starts a new day, once again, there are dishes in the sink and I seriously need to go grocery shopping. However, I am well, my kids are well, we have a roof over our heads, loved ones in our heart and we are a family….. life is great.
I hope you have a happy day! I hope you find joy today, I hope you know that you are loved and you matter. I know I need to know that at times. I plan on looking for joy today, I plan on making someone happy with a smile, a hug or a text saying you matter to me.
Thank you so much for popping in and reading this blog of mine. I do love it, I look so forward to your comments, they seriously make my day! I will be back tomorrow and not with such a sappy post… but hey I wanted to show you I was normal! Haha! Just for laughs.. here is my kitchen sink right now, no lie!
AND here is what I am feeding my kids for breakfast, I have no eggs in the house, no cold cereal…. I could use my frozen pancakes, but I would rather save those for school next week! I do have some gross canned cinnamon rolls that were on sale a few weeks ago and thought it would be fun to try, they are not really delicious at all… and I do have some grapes! Hey its breakfast time kiddos!
It is also 8:30 am and I am still in my pjs and the kids are still barely moving! Hey though, cute Marsha is smiling!! In one of my favorite lines from Madagascar, The penguins say…. “smile and wave boys, smile and wave!” So today, I am just going to smile and wave! Enjoy the moment… I hope you have a super day!
SMILE BOOK! ( always something to smile about… always)
*Pto meeting went great! I was very nervous…
*Cleaned out my fridge! WHoo hoo! No food left in there, but a cleaner fridge!
*The kids playing outside in the rain.. loved it
*Must go for dinner, great way to use up leftovers
* Mike ran out really early this morning and got bread and milk! yay!