Scared, but going for it!

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Happy, happy Thursday!  What a week so far!  WOW!  It is not slowing down either!  The other day on Facebook, there was a post going around, you were given a number and had to share that number of things that people don’t know about you.  I took the challenge, I had 8 things that I shared that weren’t commonly known about me.  My number one?  My number one was a dream that I have told very, very few people.  For some reason I shared it, and not only shared it but put it as the first thing!  My number one is that ever since I was younger I wanted to be a motivational speaker.  I wanted to be someone who inspired others to know how wonderful they are, someone who motivated  and helped others see the good that is everywhere.  I wanted to make a difference in others lives.  Fast forward, I am 37!   Thirty-seven!  YIKES! I am trying to live my dream. I am living my dream actually…. I am doing it!  I do it through blogging.   I decided to start blogging in all honesty over a year ago, my friend and bishop at church told me I should blog.   At first I was thinking really? Me? I have nothing to share in the world! At that same moment, a little spark of desire and hope was there.  I realized that I really did want to blog. It was one of those things I really wanted to do, deep down inside.  I was just scared.  Scared of failure, scared of rejection, scared it wouldn’t  be good enough, won’t make sense, won’t add any value to people’s’ lives. Even with all those fears,  I  decided to do it. I bought the domain name, I got the website, and I froze.  A year went by with nothing.  I thought about it everyday, I took pictures and I even wrote things I wanted to share with you, the world. AND I DID NOTHING… for over a year!  I did not like how that felt…I hated how that felt. My sweet husband was so supportive and encouraged me to just do it. He just kept telling me, just go for it, it does not have to be perfect.   I finally listened, I listened to my sweet husband, supportive friends and that little voice inside. I decided to go for it and on October 10,2013 I went for it! I had my first post and I have posted Monday thru Friday since.  I did it! I am still doing it! I am just learning as I go, the website isn’t perfect, the pictures aren’t perfect, but I am doing it.  It is now November 14, and I am still doing it!  I am super proud of that!  I am still scared, I still pray daily to be able to articulate what I am trying to share, and to do a great job.  I am not going to let my fears stop me.  I still have the fears, I will be honest. BUT, the fears don’t matter.  What matters is that I am doing it! I appreciate all of the feedback I have gotten.  Every comment you send is so appreciated, every page you check out makes me feel so happy.  I love hearing from you and love all the comments and look forward to more!  I am going to continue to get better, the website will improve, pictures will get better. I am really hoping for a camera for Christmas….( hint, hint hubby!) Where will this take me?  I don’t know, I am honestly figuring it out as I go! But, I wanted to say thank you for being along for the ride. I will tell you this, I will not freeze.  I will not quit.  This is what I love, I am excited every single day to get on and post!   I hope you continue to check in on the blog often.  I will continue to post, continue to find my voice and what works and what doesn’t…. Isn’t that the best?  The journey?  We all have that dream that we don’t share, my hope for you is that you just go for it! Share your dream! GO for it!  Scared as you may be…just do it.  I saw this quote the other day, and I loved it!  The first step is the hardest! Once you have taken that step it is easier to keep going.  In the short time that I am living my blog dream, I am so happy, I love the journey, the triumphs and trials.  In just over a month,  it has made a difference in my life.  I am excited and I am HAPPY!!  I am loving blogging!  SO, not that I am an expert , but I can say it is worth it!   I believe in your dream!  What is your dream?  What would you be?  What would you do? If you weren’t scared?  I would love to hear!    I am grateful to you all!!  Have a wonderful, happy day!! I will see you tomorrow… that is for sure!

Love,Lara

So very, very true!

I am living my dream!

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